It was hot today… but… Canada hot. And I know I’ve never really been anywhere that has real hot. Washington, DC on the 4th of July might count, but I don’t know if it does. I’ve never been anywhere near the equator, a desert, or a jungle. I’ve only ever experienced Canadian hot. So take my assessment with a grain of salt…
Allow me to geek out for a moment when I say that my favourite part of this part of the year, this mid-May mid-Springtime bliss, is the thunderstorms. Cold fronts meet warm fronts. High pressure systems meet low pressure systems. The battle lines get drawn in the atmosphere and we get to watch the spectacular fight to see who wins.
Today was one such day. I was sitting in my basement watching the finale of The Voice after work. I had a very, very hard day and getting through it was enough of a chore that I just wanted to turn my brain off. The trouble was though that I didn’t turn off my brain at all, because it was the first time I’d been able to sit down at my computer for longer than 10 minutes in a little over a week, which left me with almost 100 new emails to read — mostly blog posts from other bloggers I love.
The utter difficulty of pretending to hold myself together through this day, and knowing that there are others just like it coming, made the idea of cooking myself my own dinner sound really unappealing. Remembering my colleague’s leftover Chinese food today at lunch, I caved and I called my order in.
You see, from my basement, the world outside looked peachy keen. It appeared to be sunny and I knew it was warm. I stepped outside though to go pick up my dinner, and because this was a rare occasion that I forgot my phone, I can’t show you what I saw from the parking lot. I’ll have to tell you. There had been thunder rumbling behind my house to the South West, complete with the blackening sky and the ominous calm stillness to the air. The thunder rumbled low and constant, maybe 15 seconds at a time. I just stopped and listened for a moment… while to the North and the East, the sky was blue, the clouds white and puffy.
Parking lots haven’t been my friend these last 24 hours, so being stopped in my tracks in sheer awe while standing in the middle of one wasn’t what I expected this afternoon. But that’s precisely what happened. I got out of my car to run in and pay for my dinner, and I literally stopped and stared. I’m mad that I didn’t have my phone. To the East, a beautiful blue sky with puffy white clouds was arced with a vibrant rainbow. To the South and West, the sun fought hard to pierce through the darkness threatening to engulf it, and the rays shone through, but only a few. To the South West you could see the shelf lines – the lines where cold meets warm and high pressure meets low. The front had drawn its battle lines. It seemed like it wouldn’t be long before the sun was swallowed by the ominous looking thunder clouds.
This whole analogy feels kind of like my soul. The light is trying to pierce through. I’m trying to shine my way through darkness that threatens to swallow me up, and right now it feels like the darkness is going to win. Those thunder clouds are going to get my sun. But that rainbow reminds me of a promise made so many, many years ago…. and I know that the sun never loses the battle for long. And I can cling to that.
I got home and grabbed my phone, and took a stroll up and down my street. As I walked for just a few minutes, I once again heard the constant rumble of the thunder, but at the same time I listened to the birds chirping and the mourning doves singing their sorrowful song. I love mourning doves. And I wonder… the birds have to know that something’s brewing up there. Animals sense things much better than we do, and I could sense it. Did the birds know it wasn’t going to be as bad as it looked? Is that why they were still being brave and carrying on with their day? Do they know a secret that I’m not in on?
All of this reminded me of that saying — Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain. Normally, I’d say I agree with that statement, but in this case I just don’t. I can’t get behind that this time around. And so in this stormy season I may not be dancing, but I will be clinging to the promise of that rainbow. This too shall pass.
Cuz the funny part….. it didn’t rain until 6 hours later than expected, and the severe warned storm just never showed up.